I kept praying for my husband but unfortunately he did not recover back to his normal self after his nervous breakdown. He became paranoid and controlling which led to verbal and sexual abuse. I was in denial of his behavior even though my son and daughter recognized it. During an altercation between my husband and son, I had to beg my son to leave to avoid them from fighting. A few weeks later I took my daughter to a friend’s house and flew home to my parents to temporarily get away.
Leap out of Joy
Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. Romans 12:15
In July 2008 I spent about a week back home with my parents. At first I was very distraught. My parents comforted me but they did not tell me what to do. I eventually started getting up early every morning to walk along the canal bank reading scripture on my smartphone and praying to God. I longed for the time when I was happy and my parents were so proud of me. That’s when God spoke so clearly to me. I understood that He created me to accomplish great things but I made a seriously bad choice by becoming unequally yoked. I was not specific or discerning when I prayed for a husband. I married a man that loved me and took care of me and our children but he did not have a strong personal relationship with God. Therefore, we were operating as husband and wife but we were not one body in Christ. That’s why we both experienced the same trials, but he had a nervous breakdown and I didn’t. Although I did go into early pre-menopause and developed high blood pressure.